invisible protection

there is no one out there can hear me.
there is no one out there can read me.
there is no one out there can feel me.

give me..
give me...
give me a chance to choose...
give me to fall down.
give me to feel how pain it is....
stop giving me all those excuses.

all because " i love you.. " again.

warm WARNING to ME....

no cold FnB which include :
no icecream
no ice chocolate
no ice kacang.
^^ reduce the pain on ankle.

concentrate in studies:
no comics
no megazines
no pressing mobile phone
no chit chatting.
^^ so can fly together to uk.

healthy lifestyle :
take 3 proper meals on time
less sweet
less sugar
less salt.
^^ because want you to be chubby.

simple .. easy.. and joyful... ^^

it is OKAY....

annulment,separation,break-up is common in life.
there is not a misdemeanor when going to end the status.
what's so surprise when people anounce it?
give people a encouragement smilling face to bring them up.

human being is curious on every thing new.
human being is too inquisitive.
and excessively eager to find out about other people's affairs.

spring comes and goes.
welcome autumn.
say bye to summer.
and wait for winter...
life is going on....
that's how great the life is...



p.s
dont cry..and stay well with the two babies... ^^

ARE YOU READY...?

jealousy.
envious.
green-eyed.
covetous.
resentful.
green with envy.
desirous.
bitter.

all of you are coming to killing all of us.
we paid all our hard work
the hard work made it achieve the status we having now.
please go away from me.

be careful.
be cautious.
be wary.
look out
watch out.
take heed.
think twice.

all of this are just too little...
too little to be applied on daily life to pretect ourselves.
let's us hold our hand tightly and build the fence...
defend-ing...to ensure we are safe.

A F R A I D

it not too long before i point it out.
you force to fake
fake to give me a smile
fake to give me a laugh
everyday in my life.

i never stray too far from you.
when it wasnt even whole to start with
i am afraid
i watched you
i heard you cry
but i didnt catched you
i was so young
you never thought of my pain
and you let go

i tired the hardest thing.
hardest in forgot everything.
i am ashamed of my life because of you.

D R E A M

Butterfly.
a injured butterfly.
unlike the spread freedom.
love was even more heartbreaking.
there are more detail can be.

autumn harvest leaves all over the floor.
it is another night i am missing you out there.
originally with the seperation.
tear off the pages slowly.
regret with all the word had taken down.

holding back the feeling.
i do not cry.
cried a long time will be tired.

this season.
only thought of you.
a cup with full of adjournment.
and bring me emotional fragmented.

- Go - Went - Gone -

I don't since when came up with that
but we were obviously on the receiving end of some harsh words.

Ya - I am fine.
definately.
exactly 100% in a good condition.
come in to my blood-pumping organ,
i am not actually...
I've written and rewritten this post a hundred times.
million and another million times.
break throught my mind.
I just cannot find the words to adequately describe how I'm feeling...
I really hope this comes out coherently!

I understand that we live in a world.
we need it or may not need it.
And because of this, I can assume that the majority of people out there seeking of it.
can just take it as a 'mistake'...?
it the mistake to lead, guide , build in the character of individual..?
is a CLUE for us..?

And this is where it starts..?
So - how do you treat someone you consider to be a mistake?
Do you ridicule them?
Do you call their names?
Do you consider them worthy?
Do you see them as a peer or someone to be 'put up with'?
Do you get to know them?
Do you even see them, or is ignoring them better?
Remember - this person is a 'mistake',
they weren't supposed to be in the first place.

But how does the world view from him?
How will they treat him one day when he's out there without me by his side?
Will they call his names?
Will they respect him?
Will they 'put up' with him?

More importantly - will they to pay respect to this?
Will he able to explain to them what was happening due to this consequences to be heppened?
Will I able to explain to them what was happening due to this consequences to be heppened too?

i found that - they are not interested on this too.