- Go - Went - Gone -

I don't since when came up with that
but we were obviously on the receiving end of some harsh words.

Ya - I am fine.
definately.
exactly 100% in a good condition.
come in to my blood-pumping organ,
i am not actually...
I've written and rewritten this post a hundred times.
million and another million times.
break throught my mind.
I just cannot find the words to adequately describe how I'm feeling...
I really hope this comes out coherently!

I understand that we live in a world.
we need it or may not need it.
And because of this, I can assume that the majority of people out there seeking of it.
can just take it as a 'mistake'...?
it the mistake to lead, guide , build in the character of individual..?
is a CLUE for us..?

And this is where it starts..?
So - how do you treat someone you consider to be a mistake?
Do you ridicule them?
Do you call their names?
Do you consider them worthy?
Do you see them as a peer or someone to be 'put up with'?
Do you get to know them?
Do you even see them, or is ignoring them better?
Remember - this person is a 'mistake',
they weren't supposed to be in the first place.

But how does the world view from him?
How will they treat him one day when he's out there without me by his side?
Will they call his names?
Will they respect him?
Will they 'put up' with him?

More importantly - will they to pay respect to this?
Will he able to explain to them what was happening due to this consequences to be heppened?
Will I able to explain to them what was happening due to this consequences to be heppened too?

i found that - they are not interested on this too.

too much frOm yOu

I would say that I am definitely someone who finds it more comfortable living in my head.

And I often find I miss out on life , either in the past or the future.


Having said this,
I've always been good at imagining my life,
creating an image in my mind of how I wish it could be,
what I would do given the chance... ?
Now, this could be good and it could be bad....

But I've also learned that dreaming is not always practical.

it often takes up the valuable time I could have spent living.

And I've learned that sometimes our dreams cannot begin to encompass what is actually in store for us.
I kept drawing a blank.

So, you were taught me to live in the moment,
a lesson I try to apply to my life everyday.
A lesson that I find most challenging...
I know that nothing I dream of can compare with....
what I have, right here, in front of me.